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Uncertain...   
12:59am 29/03/2006
 
mood: contemplative
Well, I've finally met my roommate. We've only been living in the same room for like a month and we JUST met. It was nice to meet him though. Sorta. Nothing to do with him, just shit going on in my head. He sparked something, and I'm not sure why and I don't know what to think about it. I'm trying not to though. I don't want to black out because of it. I haven't blacked out since my first meeting with Doc. Graves and I like that. I'm finally getting used to things here and getting comfortable and I'm afraid that I'll black out and fuck everything up again. Pwcca has left us, and even though I didn't really meet her in person, you can tell that her presence is missed by those who knew her. I'm glad she is out though, free to be herself in the world and to do what she wants. I hope that things go well for her.
Odey wrote me, telling my how things have been at home. Everyone's fine and she wants to visit but I don't know if I'm ready to see my family yet, especially not dad. Bad things will happen if he comes, I know it.

I Miss you and Love you,
Richard		  
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Back dated - Just before the movie night   
01:18am 23/03/2006
 
mood: awake
I know I haven't written here in a while but that's just because I haven't had much to say. I've been spending most of my time in my room. Not doing much other than reading and sleeping. I come out to use the washroom and for my medication but other then that, it's just me, my books and my pillow. My roommate comes and goes but we haven't really talked. I didn't even know I was gettin one until I woke up one day a found that the other side of the room had somebody's things in it. I don't even know his name actually. Oh well, I guess we'll run itno eachother sometime. I've met a couple of people, Aloki who is really nice and a few others. One guy kind of creeped me out a bit but oh well, look where I am right?
One thing that's confused me a bit though, I haven't had a session with my doctor yet... a Dr. Greely. I asked Alden about it but he said that the hospital's been buisy with new admissions, but he was sure that Dr. Greely would get around to me eventually. I'm not really complaining though, I like my solitude. It's been nice to just have a break away from everyone, away from the awkward looks and the unsettling feeling that always seems to hang in the air back at home. I am getting bored though. I heard about a movie night that one of the girls here is having. I think I'll go and see what's going on. I really should get out more.
I wish you were still here with me.
I miss you.

Richard		  
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01:43pm 23/02/2006
 
mood: blah
music: Thoughts in my head
I've not been feelin' to well lately. I'm not sick or anythin' like that, I just feel down. I guess it's from bein' locked up in 'ere. I 'aven't been around much, just lying on my bed most of the time. I don't really feel like doin' much, just sleep. I'm still under restriction, dunno why but what ever. I 'aven't met with Dr. Greely yet, actually, I 'aven't met anyone yet 'cept for Alden but I guess that's what comes from stayin' all cooped up in yer room. I think I might hang out in the common room, see who else is locked up in 'ere, same as me.

Miss you, love you.
Richard		  
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My New Life   
03:54am 16/02/2006
 
mood: blah
Well, this is my first journal in this new place. I don't know what to think of it so far. Dr. Graves is really nice and so is the orderly that brought me here, Alden I think was his name. I haven't met any of the other patients yet but I'm sure that'll change soon enough. I have my own room, which, from what Alden told me was a rare thing but I'm glad for it. I'd rather be on my own then having to share with some loony. I know that this place is supposed to help me, with my black outs but I still don't know why we had to leave home. I miss Grand Falls, I miss my old house, I miss, well everything. I miss you very much. I still don't understand why you left me. I don't think I ever will. Well I don't have much to say today so I'll leave it here. I miss you and I love you.

Richard.		  
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